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8/23/2018 4 Comments

I AM WILLING TO HOLD MY OWN HAND

Searching for blog topics is never easy. Sometimes I have information spilling out of my mind that I can't wait to share. Other weeks, it's like the creative well dries up, and nothing is coming. This week is one of those weeks.

So I went to my Louise Hay affirmation calendar from last year. I save the calendars to use as note paper, and to send inside packages as love notes, so I always have plenty on hand.

I took a deep breath, pounded on the stack of affirmations in my hands to infuse my energy into them, and asked for the message I most needed to hear today. I closed my eyes and shuffled through the deck until I got to a page that felt right. I pulled it out of the glue binding.

This is what it said: 
"I am wiling to hold my own hand and work through any fears I may have."


I have spent many times in my life having to work through my fear and anxiety. In fact, in Chinese medicine, I came to the planet with a major challenge of anxiety. I have had lots of it from as early as I can remember. I even went so far to have panic attacks in my early 20's. It's been difficult, as you might well imagine, and I have learned so much in learning to hold my own hand to work through this anxiety.

Early on, I tried mainstream medical and took Xanax for several years while I was in my early 20's and combined it with in therapy. Therapy became an excellent tool for me to process and let off stress. Xanax - although it helped me through a rough spell, the withdrawals from that addictive drug were incredible.

Here's how it went. As I house sat some pets in a beautiful Bethesda, Maryland home, I noticed I had swollen glands near my throat. Other than that, I felt fine. Yet after a week of these painfully swollen glands, I knew I was wrestling an infection. My doctor confirmed it - I had strep throat. No fever. No sore throat. Just swollen glands. So he recommended antibiotics.

Since I am a physically sensitive empath, I hated combining prescriptions because I didn't like the side effects of one much less a combination. So I asked him if I could stop the Xanax. He said that he thought that would be fine. 

So I stopped. Suddenly. I thought nothing of it. Yet I went through several weeks of severe withdrawal symptoms like I had never experienced. The first night I felt so nauseous, I went to sleep before the sun went down.  This was highly unusual for me. The next week, I couldn't feel my legs. They felt numb. Walking on numb legs was interesting. As that resolved, I couldn't feel my arms and hands. I could move them and grab things, but I couldn't feel my actions. 

I trudged back to my doctor, who told me that I was experiencing the withdrawal from the drug. He said that I could start taking it again and taper. I had gone a few weeks off the drug, so he said I could also work through the symptoms without it. Up to me. So I decided to stay away from the drug. 

This was a wise choice for me to learn to manage my anxiety in healthier ways.

My anxiety work has not been in isolation. I have worked with others - therapists, wellness coaches, biofeedback professionals, energy workers, personal trainers - to learn how to develop a protocol for myself to keep my anxiety at a healthy level. 
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Here is what I have learned to keep my anxiety in check. In essence, these are the ways I hold my own hand:
  • Calming techniques I learned through biofeedback, including meditation, yoga, breathing, letting go, massage, and managing my mental chatter
  • Taking supplements of GABA, nature's valium, and magnesium, a calming mineral that is an ambassador of our cells and regulates/calms our entire system
  • Exercising with exertion regularly to release any stress
  • Spending time with friends
  • Being in nature - slowing life down
  • Saying positive affirmations routinely
  • Using supportive self-statements when I am experiencing high anxiety (For example, telling myself I am out of balance and asking myself what I need to do in the moment to feel more grounded and secure.)
  • Eating foods that are grounding and healthy
  • Receiving an energy clearing or giving one

 I pay attention when I feel anxious for my intuition has something to say. I am thankful that I have learned to listen to my anxiety and take care of it. It keeps me safe, centered, and balanced.

How do you hold your own hand?
4 Comments
Gordon Reese
9/8/2018 04:45:43 pm

Meditation, exercise, reading, learning, hanging with friends and having fun.

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Kim Carroll
9/9/2018 07:50:44 pm

"I am wiling to hold my own hand and work through any fears I may have."
Often, we want others "experts" to be the ones to tell us what to do, and yet it is that person within you that has many of the answers needed - especially when we are mindful of our bodies and reactions...
Thanks for the reminder!

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Michelle Reese link
9/10/2018 09:40:22 pm

So simple and yet profound - it is that person within each of us that has many of the needed answers - particularly when it comes to our own bodies and emotions. Thank you for your comment and wisdom!

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Michelle link
9/10/2018 09:37:32 pm

It's good to know that you're taking care of yourself in these ways! Good for you.

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